Sometimes I get it

Do you ever just feel like you are always chasing something? A better job, a bigger house, a better relationship?

I LOVE a chase. I always have. It's what makes me bound out of bed in the morning. Being a Leo (of which you can tell I take great pride that my mom managed to push me out on the final day of Leo greatness), I want big and shiny. When I get big and shiny, I want bigger and shinier. I am not really a perfectionist, I just like life to be intense and fiery and shiny.

I have often thought that if you give up chasing then you give up on life. I thought that to "learn to be happy with what you have" was code for give up and just accept mediocrity. And I want nothing to do with mediocrity. Except for some reason, today I understand that being happy with what you have is intense. It means being happy while you strive for something else. That takes courage, and I fancy myself the kind of lion who does not lack courage. But is it fiery to be happy with what you have? The love I have for sweetheart burns with more heat than it did in the moment I said “I do”. I ache to have another child, but the love I have for beautiful daughter is so shiny it's almost blinding.

Be happy with what you have. I get it.